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today is scary.. damn quiet at my work place!! these few days actually.. average only sold 3pcs per day.. haiz.. but who cares!! hahha.. anyway i've hit the target liao.. haha!! I admit.. i'm abit papaya now.. surprised today that the bunch of sch girls didn't come.. suddenly felt so quiet.. too quiet actually.. haha.. Kelly is back from taiwan today.. hmm but too bad she didn't come oso.. too tired maybe.. but rest lor.. or else next day have to come back to work liao.. hmm.. actually wanted to go holiday oso.. haiz.. but really can't find kaki to go with.. either they no money or not free.. even thought of going bali or bintan alone that time.. hehe.. wanted to go somewhere near the beach.. some place where i can relax and dun think about anything.. hmmm... it'll be best if my love one can be beside and watch the sun-set together holding her in my arms.. *dreaming again* hahah...
'c' said something today again.. asking why actually am i so happy about having 5 wife? hmm.. can't really say why i'm so happy oso.. it's something fun.. something which we can relate.. something oso that will divert my thoughts.. and yes i'm happy.. notice recently that i've haven't been angry about anything anymore..
bluefantasy
11:36 PM
wow..juz woke up.. really tired from yesterday.. coz the nite before peiwen called ard 2am so we chat up till 3+ then i scared i won't be able to wake up at 630.. so hahah.. i must well dun sleep.. so i went to the staff breifing at city hall.. haiz.. sharen is late.. so we skipped breakfast.. hmm.. heard that we may get 1-3 mths bonus this year.. hope to get ard 1.5-2 mth.. coz 3 mths is for those super siao on one..and heng we skipped breakfast.. there are buffet availble!! haha.. save money.. saw widia, ana, lina and liza... hahah notice something again.. i've been working with girls for most of the time..hahah..
then i went to work.. lic to be late.. haha damn tired..at work afternoon came the whole bunch of secondary girls!! hahah.. half way eating lunch i'm surrounded by them.. "neighbor kor kor!!" (-_-)"' hahha.. funny girls.. they came to accompany "c" for lunch.. then they came to the counter again.. haiz..
after work.. suddenly wanted to eat KFC... speacial 2pcs meal again.. hungry.. then C acompanied me.. hehe touched.. she called my hp and ask if i wanted accompany? ofcoz!! heheh.. something which i regret shortly.. ahhaha.. she saw looking looking at me in a way which i'm felt awakening..hahaha.. she do that on purpose!! fun actually appreciated it.. thankz... hahah
bluefantasy
11:43 AM
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once upon a time.. in hell.. there lives an angel.. who was banished there by a curse.. a curse by a princess.. everyday seems like forever.. and how do you define forever once ppl asked.. so imagine this.. u are a small little bird living on top of a moutain made of millions and trillions of small little peas... and u have to transport every one of it to a place.. lets say 1000000000km away across the hot deasert.. and u can only transport it one at a time.. every cm u fly feels like fire burning through ur skin.. and how long do u think u will transport the whole moutain of peas to the other side?... thats forever..
everytime the angel tried to free himself trying to fly away from the hell.. it feels like his wings is being lock up by chains.. chains that made by torns... every single move he made will lead the torns into his skin and the more he tried to move the more the wounds will tear apart.. its like being kinfe through his heart.. but yet he can't die only to feel the pain... he was helpless then.. every day he looked into the sky thinking.. why would anyone do this to him.. he blame everyone.. not know who to blame actually.. he told himself to love the princess.. but didn't know why and what made him loved her so much... or is this really love?
then years has passed.. the angel almost gave himself up.. he asked god... "why? why is that so that i have to deserved this? why do she have to do this to me?".... no reply...
then suddenly.. a light pass through the clouds from the sky and shoot directly infont of the angel...
[to be continue]
bluefantasy
4:18 AM
notice something again.. the blog i'm writing appeared to be without any title though i've title for every entries i wrote.. well now i dun bother liao.. hahah.. off day again today.. woke up only after 4pm.. hahah... but i'm really all died tired.. i deserved this rest!!!!! ^_^ then went out to watch Initial D movie.. 1920show.. after i bought the ticket went to KFC for dinner/lunch.. 2pcs meal!!!! only $3.95!!!!!! think its a great deal.. well really have no money liao.. 2 days more to pay day!! hang in there...
tok about the movie.. Initial D-hmmm.. the show was quite disappointing.. was quite diff from the actual cartoon..i still prefer the cartoon..its more exciting.. the drifting and tail gating part.. think many ppl like that show becoz of Jay.. but i really like the Cartoon.. its part of my childhood and dreams.. I've been driving for 5 years now.. really love cars alot.. the driving part actually.. the feeling of speed.. cornering and accuracies.. the feeling of able to control something and going everywhere u want and sight seeing.. notice something again.. i like the rest my elbow on the window when driving too... but haiz.... i still dun have my own cars... my dreams... for now.. to earn my own cars.. to drive my 5 wife around for dinner everywhere..!! heheh.. they have been driving me around now..
hmm.... tmw have to wakeup at 0630 and reach city hall by 8 for the bloody dunno wat anual tok by our CEO!?!? Jay Gee.. but dunno who..its a indian.. but who cares.. i juz want my bonus!! hahah.. meeting sharon for breakfast..
something hit me hard that day by "c".. haha.. first when i came to Cck lot1.. i really wanted to quit.. but now.. somehow.. i can't bare to do so.. the reason?... guess u all know and 'c' said it.. heheh... can't bare to leave my 5 wife.. really.. but someday.. i'll have to do so.. i have my plan.. if my plan turn out well.. the most i can stay is 9 mths... but really.. still i can't bare to do so.. dunno if we'll still contact each other if i left... i hope so... sometimes think i'm the only one clinging on to the 5 wife things.. haha.. stupid? sometimes....
bluefantasy
1:17 AM
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haiz.. good news.. seems like we have hit this mth target!! kinda slack now.. no mood to push sales liao.. ^_^ hmm.. well.. but things dun seems well at home.. sian!! bills.. gonna take out almost $300 for next mth bills.. haiz.. dunno why, everything seems to fall apart when it comes to bills!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate it!!!!! AAAAaaaaaaaaarrrrggggghhh... hmm how good it is when everything is free!?! hahah dreaming again.. well there isn't any free lunch in this world i guess..
bluefantasy
3:17 AM
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now is 0033am.. at nite.. juz came back from movie hmm.. in the end peiwen still came down.. watched batman begin.. crap actually.. I notice that actually batman is the richest of all superhero!! but he has no super power!! someone who is obess with bats poor guy have to spent all his money for weapons and car.. hmm do his car include COE?.. a lunatic who believe that he is a bat.. someone who have no intention of hidding his identity.. but still wore a mask? sometime think he was spiderman... hmmm.. funny..hehe.. poor spiderman.. he is the poorest. from spider2 he even have no money to pay for his sch bills and rent.. haha..
bought something for da laopo and san laopo.. heheh its the CD-R.. quite cheap.. but very cute.. chose this esp for them.. hope they will like it.. Aim for cannon 7.1mega pix digi cam.. best price i can get is $720 - $738.. hmm when the original price is $846? hmm.. wonder wats going on.. a gimmick? think the cheaper one is made in china and the more X one is made in japan? stupid me.. didn't go and find out more.. but peiseh as i'm not buying now.. so afraid to ask too much... coz i know the feeling.. heheh.. hmmm.. but dunno if i wanna buy the canon pro1 or not.. its$1499.. but found a place which can pay by instalment.. with 0%.. one mth $100+.. hmm.. owning a that kind of camera had been my dream for very long... (notice something.. Kelly oso have the same dream..) but dunno... haiz.... kept noticing things recently.. alot of the feelings can't be written down..( becoz i dunno how to)
bluefantasy
12:52 AM
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--> Durian... ^_^ <--
Juz woke up!! haha.. finally today is my off day.. so long never sleep till so late liao..going to simlim square later.. alone.. haiz. Peiwen fly me plane~ well she last min go staff meeting today.. nevermind..
hm.. yesterday is another fun day! gone out with My 1st 2nd and 3rd laopo to west mall..me reach there before them and look for digital cam.. but the price is off range..thats why i'm going to recce today.. then we went to moss burger for dinner.. fun too.. after then Kelly my da laopo invite me to her house for durian!! heh.. so peiseh at first but her family are warm and frenly..happiness can be as simple as 1 whole family sitting down together to eat durian and chat... yeah.. (quite peisah that they really tell mother that i'm kelly's hubby..heheh..)hahah.. then come the best part..! photo!!! photo!! (forget abt it.. she will get angry) but dear.. u are not urgly.. i find you cute really.. think i really fall in love with her liao~ (heheh Are u reading this? gotcha!!) ^_^
bluefantasy
2:22 PM
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Another nice day.. haha.. been having nice day ever since that choice i've made.. hmm i won't regret.. at least i'm happy.. ^_^ C aka Yanyi juz came back from her holiday.. heard she had a great time.. well.. guess wat?!? she bought gift for everyone... and oso include me!!! hehhe didn't expect that.. really.. though it was juz a small gift.. its a bracelet.. but i really like it.. really touched oso..so sweet of her to include me... coz it juz feel good that someone actually think of u.. well even we dun really know each other for long.. even barely 2 mths.. she is my number 4 laopo!! heheh.. think me siao liao.. been working for 8 or 9 days straight again.. but heng got a new part-timer now..think he can help me.. maybe he quite new lor.. he still didn;t have the confidence there.. must try to be more relax.. hmm for the whole of today i juz ate 1 curry puff.. coz no money liao hahha!! again!!! didn't even have money to top up ezlink..!! hahahah.. well.. got used to it.. this mth is the last mth i'm suffering from this!! coz i'm not going to give her money anymore (yah~~!) really its good for her too.. cos if she really aren't coming back to me.. i dun see the need to take care of her anymore.. i've been there for her these years even though she had a bf then.. and even now dating other guys.. been give her over $200 - $300 everymth..sometimes even more.. being there for her hearing her complain with her bf.. used me to anger him.. runing errand for her.. even give her morning calls everyday at 6am even morning resulting me late for work.. but was she there when i needed her??? no... think now i finally woke up.. made this the last blog i'll ever mention her again.. i'll move on!!! yes.. suddenly have the thinking of treating my 5 laopo good including peiwen too... being nice to them being there for them if someday they need me.. coz think i'll be more happy this way.. well this isn't anything romantic though.. not becoz i've fall in love with them.. but dunno.. i'm someone who wanted to be loved and to love.. i need to love someone.. think me siao liao.. hahha.. i'm a nice guy in nature.. ahahahha.. bhb.. well.. wanted to spread my love to these girls.. ^_^ for my own good too.. to divert my attention.. hmm.. someday i'll tell more about each and everyone of them how i think about them.. very soon.. i like to see ppl.. some strong point abt me.. i can see deep into ppl's heart.. and dig the good out of them.. i may not be rite but thats wat i think abt them.. pls wait...
bluefantasy
1:01 AM
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another day gone.. notice something.. actually happiness is everywhere.. u juz have to set ur mind and be contented with wat u have now and cherish everything... everything in this world is beautiful.. u juz need to find it.. i esp like kids.. coz first they are so cute!! true and innocent.. their love for u is real.. juz dun betray their trust and they will love you forever.. hmmm.. i wanna try to quit smoking.. slowly cutting down.. i hope i'll quit this time..for good.. thinking.. next mth pay.. hahah.. i got some things i wanting to buy.. but dunno if i should.. first- a camera? (taking photo is my hobby.. i've been wanting to buy one for years.. till now i haven't got a digital cam..) second- a mp3 player? (dunno.. it'll be useful.. my cd player lost for years too.. wanting to listen to music) third- a keyboard (wanted it for years too..) or do i juz save the money for future use? hmm.. i wanna travel.. save the money first then go for holiday someday? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm............... dunno...
bluefantasy
12:12 AM
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hmm.. too long never update my dear blog liao.. well too many things happened.. i've finally come to my sense.. thank you.. many happy things happened too... CCK lot 1 wasn't that bad anyway.. effort being put in and result is there.. gotta hit this mth too.. i got the confident.. hehe.. stress... but during my stay there got to know a few frens there.. Kelly, "C" (Yanyi), Lingmin, Risa, Liling?(kathy).. and all of a sudden i got 5 wifes? hahah... well.. and these are the people who pull me out of my pain.. not forgetting peiwen.. they made me understand wat are frens for and who really deserved to be nice to.. the reason.. at least they let me feel i'm not taken granted for.. and when i'm down.. or in trouble they are there for me.. and kelly.. she gave me morning call.. thats something sweet and touching to me.. for all these years.. i'm the one who give people morning calls.. it really feel good when u know someone remember and care.. with juz a simple "morning call".. thankyou so much.. hmm.. plus i like going out with them.. they are fun.. and yes... eating.. and "one"? heheh... somehow felt love again... the frenship kinda love... thatz all i need now... thankz all of you..
bluefantasy
3:35 AM
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